Coke

coke
I can’t sleep. I have been avoiding coke for a couple of weeks but tonight I had a drink. Too much caffeine I guess. As I was on my bed, I can’t sleep. I tried closing my eyes several times but my mind doesn’t want to shut down.  Suddenly I remember my father who passed away. I don’t know maybe because my contract is expiring (work stuff) or simply because I missed him. After all it has been almost 8 years. Our family has been doing great thanks to my mother who always finds ways for us to survive. It’s been a great ride. I know my mother suffers a lot of pain not just by losing her husband but also from her children and that includes me. I remember her crying in front of me when I messed up my studies at MSU-IIT. And when I think about it now, I was such a bad son. Now, I realized that to be a good son, you need to be a good student also. She always tells me that I am good brother to my siblings. Of course, I had to. I am the eldest. Setting example is not my style. I was not born to become a leader, I knew it since the day I realized I like being alone more than having a companion. I don’t even talk that much with my mother when we were in sala while watching TV. But I do listen, I just choose not to respond.

So, Poetry!

They say poetry ignores grammar. So, POETRY! :D

How he read the word "crush" is tingly. 

Searching Feature Layer By its Attribute

Here's the screenshot 'coz I'm not good at explaining.
A pop up will show if the feature layer is found, it is also selected.

Here's the link for displaying Popups.

Here's the code below for reference:
Supposed your Vector Layer name is "layer_agao" and your SelectFeature Control is "selectControl".

My Ultimate Dream

So, I graduated. It's too late though but I've been thinking, what then? What's next? Well, I've been lucky to land a job after graduation. I'm proud of it because the project that I'm involved with helps the city of Butuan. My mother is happy, of course. It is such a wonderful feeling when you can treat your mother with your earned money. Yah, it's not enough! It will never be enough! :)

Currently, I'm a Cadet Programmer. By the way, we (with my fellow cadets) don't tap our keyboards synchronously. All I do is to sit and squeeze my mind, if not enough (most of the time), there's my trainer;Google. It is quite fun because of my working environment, I mean my coworkers. We laugh a lot, sing, sometimes dance and trash talks and get the job done! :D

I'm 25 and I remember being asked in my interview, who am I in the next 5 years? I don't really know! I'm a lazy person, I seldom plan ahead. I don't save money yet. I like taking one step at a time and that makes me slow with girls (hahaha). I have this thought in my mind that when I find "THE GIRL", I will marry her right after she says "yes". Crazy indeed and childish! :3

Enough with those things. Actually, my ultimate dream is not to become the world's most amazing person or a great programmer! I just want to visit Japan before getting married and attend Comiket, wrote a song (essay, poem maybe) for my first child and become a...

not a girl, but a DJ! hahaha

I really love music but I can't play any musical instruments! Haven't tried cymbals and triangle though. So maybe a DJ will do! I'm such a simple man. hahaha

Let Her Go


I love this song 'coz it has a sad melody and a meaningful lyrics. I prefer the cover above than the original. Here goes the lyrics:
Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go
Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast
You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies
But you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go
Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast
Well you see her when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
'Cause you loved her too much
And you dived too deep
Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go (oh, oh, ooh, oh no)
And you let her go (oh, oh, ooh, oh no)
Will you let her go?
'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go
'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go

BTW, it's very much ok to let go of someone 'coz in the first place, we don't own anything and we can't have everything. :3

Dear You!

Of course, you know who you are....

Just to let you know that I'm not one of those guy who doesn't care. It really bothers me when you're posting on your Facebook wall and it seems that I'm the one you're talking about (hahaha..taraw??!!). It's just sad, it keeps my head spin more. I am sorry for making you upset but please don't forget that I might feel the same also. We're both human, we just differ in perspective and preferences. I wanted to learn more about you to understand you more. As I said, I will try not to make you cry but it's impossible. 

You're a girl, I understand that you stay passive and I am sorry 'coz  I'm not that "aggressive" type of guy. I'm fine being alone but I know that I'll be happier when you're around. And I'm in no rush.  

And hey, I'm not vocal! I know that sometimes you need to spit those words out but if I do that, it won't be convincing. I prefer writing though. 

Here's my thought about you anyway:


I think that you don't really like me (I'm  pessimist).  I told you that I will miss you and I got nothing in return. I bet you won't even missed me and I'm fine with that. 

And please don't forget that we don't have a responsibility with each other. You can always say "no" to my invitations, you can always ignore my messages.

I JUST CAN'T FIGURE YOU OUT!!! This maybe because I've never been close to a woman whom I like for a long time. 

Acknowledgment

It took me so long to graduate in college and all the blame is on me. I believed that no matter what adversities you've faced, it always depends on how you accept and handle it.

When I was in my teen stage (16-20, maybe), I never thought about my future. I don't know, maybe I'm too lazy to think about it or I just don't care. Caraga State University (CarSU) is my third school, I am a dropout student in MSU, and again a dropout student in FSUU. I'm not proud of it, but I don't regret about my experiences on both school. Probably because, I gained a lot of friends. I received a lot of likes from them on Facebook, kidding aside. LOL

Anyway, this is a personal post so, it's all my opinion and this is not based on facts. It came from my head after eating lots of peanuts and drinking 6 glasses of soft drink.

In order to graduate from college you need this, shall I say it as "elements" or whatever maybe.

WILL!
Will, in philosophy, refers to a property of the mind, and an attribute of acts intentionally committed. Actions made according to a person's will are called “willing” or “voluntary” and sometimes pejoratively “willful” or “at will”. In general, "will" does not refer to one particular or most preferred desire but rather to the general capacity to have such desires and act decisively based on them, according to whatever criteria the willing agent applies.-Wikipedia
 And here's my own definition of WILL, my own explanation instead.

It's like a candle that should not falter. Now, as far as I know candle doesn't lasts forever.It melts! All we need to know is when to give up and when to fight. The question is, when is the time to give up? hahaha
You gave up when all of your resources where extremely used and you're already exhausted. What I mean with resources is your physical strength, knowledge, or anything you can give or use just to solve the problem and nothing happens. But that's me! Really, learn to let go of the those things! But I do believe in divine intervention!

Set your goal, it varies depending on the person's level of maturity. When I was 16, after graduating from high school, I don't know what should I take up in college. Until 20s hit me! (BTW,I'm a BSIT graduate) LOL



FRIENDS


Of course, you need friend! A friend who can offer you a sheet of paper during quiz. Who can lend you money. Who drank liquor. Who attends class regularly. Who gives you a ".pdf" file for study. Who trash talks. I'm lucky to have all of those! Because, they represents reality!


LUCK

They say, I don't know who they are, luck is part of being an intelligent person!

.....to be continued!