snippetbymatt

A blooming bud is predicted to be a flower. Our life is planned as our existence has been carved in a stone. No matter how we attempt to alter it, it will still fall to default. Yeah, God gave us mind. We're still the captain of our ship but the path we're taking is leading to God's horizon.  Personally, I don't plan ahead because I'm lazy. As much as possible, I want to enjoy this borrowed life. I always put this line on my head: Everyone exists, few lives. How colorful our life will be, depends on how we live. How meaningful our will be, depends on how we act. To exist for no reason is the same as being dead. To have a goal , a purpose, a priority for which you fight and stand up when you're down no matter what means to truly live, that's why life exists, for us to fight and suffer in order to gain joy. SOURCE 

Wandering late at night for indefinite reason, as my mind starts to shut down.  I made this piece of trash, throwing all my thoughts and emotions while listening to the howling dogs and feeling the cold breeze of the wind.  I always doubt the goodness of Christ coz He took a precious being from me. Up until now, I'm still in the middle of the maze.  Stunned, and can't figure out the answer.  Pain, indeed can change us. Everything happens for a reason.  This line seems like a broken record for me. But now, I gave up. I gave up on having doubt with Christ. Faith should be fixed and stable. After all, this life will return to it's home.